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~Love and Pain~	The Ramblings of a Hopeless Romantic

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Name: Alec
Country: United States
State: New Mexico
Metro: Albuquerque
Birthday: 10/4/1988
Gender: Male

Interests: My girlfriend, my friends, music especially...being myself and writing rhymes.
Expertise: being romantic
Occupation: Student

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MSN: gothicromantic@hotmail.com
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Member Since: 11/28/2004

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

now they lay me down to sleep

i cut myself you make me screem

just watch me die ill fade away

your still here forever stay.

so much drama to much pain

you lay me down now im slain.

stitch me up and leave me be

invite my friends to come and see

to many marks no sign of scars

with longing words and broken heart

my dreams are scattered they've fell right threw

i sit hear staring dont know what to do

i've finally relized ive gone away

wont see u tomorrow i've been buried today.

-Majik

sorry everyone bye

1:16 PM - 1 view - 12 eprops - 7 comments - email it

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

hey peeps, whats up? nothing much hear just working out the problems of life sorry i havent been on in a long time sorry i never say hi to busy i guess. umm sorry about the last journal entry i was just upset i have part of a poem i wrote for you guys i know all my poems are depressing but i like it

This dream has gone its come to fast

with hopeless nights and shattered glass

you wish me good i wish you well

your broken curse begins to swell

it starts to burn as your stomach turns

for all this pain i should have learned

-hopeless

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hey everybody ive been trying to write comments on your accounts tonight but everybody's account wont let me type on them. ummm listen all i have to say right now is that ive lost touch with certain people im sorry i dont call and that it seems that i only need you or call you on the 5th. if you dont think i dont cry or get upset over this then your wrong ask taryn aswk about my conversation with her last night im not only worried about me not having you as a friend im worried because i know that now i cant help you, i miss you and i still and always will love you you were the first. im sorry to kayla if you ever get a chance to read this i fucked up i want to be friends but im just in the line with the other guys who fucked you over im sorry. im not doing this for sympothy im doing this so you know how i feel and that i do miss you guys and to everyone else to troy and the rest of you guys you know who you are. god i wish everything were normal again that it was the same and that know one was arguing, and that i had stopped the lying and had of fixed it all when it started fucking up. this medicane is fucking with my head im sorry i fucked you all over and i will again. later (if i make threw the night)

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Friday, March 04, 2005

hey peeps long time no talk thought i would say whats up as you know me and ash broke up and ive been going out with girl after girl trying to find the one again but it never works. i realized i needed to stop digging the hole and climb out so thats what im doing but life is still slipping away some days i just want to cry some i just wana kill myself but i wont because i have to stay here for my friends there the only things i have in this world worth meaning and while. when life slipps away i dont think u can ever gain it back maybe thats why im so much faded so depressed and sick of life. i would tell people that i have been suicidal latly but i dont want them to worry, for those of you who live by me dont worry it will all get better with time or so they say. i miss hanging out with ashley, troy and some other people i wish i had my old life back the way it use to be. sometimes i wake up at night and i think that everything is ok that brian's still alive that me and ash are still together that everyone is friends and i dont have to cry myself to sleep one more night but then i look around i see the changes i know that wishes arent reality and that it will never be the same, so i roll over cry, wishing i were dead and then i slowly drift off to my fantasy. bye

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Here is a poem i wrote i want you guys to read:

I was the boy
who was all about light
the same boy cuts himself tonight

I was the boy
with beautiful eyes
the same eyes now emotionless and dry

I was the boy
with lots of love
which flew away like the coo of a dove

I was the boy
who loved to play
the same boy killed himself today

I was the boy
who loved to be seen
the same boy gets buried here with me

I was the boy
who had everything and everyone
now im the boy the lost and lonely son

I was the boy
who knew nothing at all
someone help me as i fall

I was the boy
who never got mad
now im the boy
who's filled with anger and always sad

I was the boy
who got good night's sleep
now im the boy who always screams and watches his cuts bleed in his dreams

I was the boy
without a care
now im the boy who has no one here

I was the boy
about fun and games, laughter and play
now im the boy who isnt even here, he's gone away

Majik

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